Ch 40: Courage to Stay

Maurya Mansion – Terrace

Sagarika, aka Tia, stepped onto the terrace, the cool breeze brushing against her face as she nervously dialed a number. The call connected, and her eyes widened in shock.

“You actually answered my call?” she blurted out.

From the other end, a man’s cold voice replied, “If you’re calling just to talk nonsense, I’ll hang up right now.”

“No, no—wait!” Sagarika rushed her words, panic lacing her tone. “I just wanted to tell you… Jharna has come back.”

A dry, mocking laugh echoed through the speaker. “Oh, thank you so much. If you hadn’t told me, how would I have ever found out?”

Sagarika frowned, confusion clouding her face. “Doesn’t it bother you? Jharna’s return has made Ivaan stronger. That’s not good for you.”

But the man’s voice was calm, almost amused. “You don’t need to worry about me. Everything is moving exactly according to my plan. And you’re wrong—Jharna’s return hasn’t made Ivaan stronger. It’s made him weaker. Right now, his entire focus is on her. That gives me all the space I need to move ahead with my work, without him interfering. His first priority is Jharna now. So tell me, when things are already falling into place with such ease, why would I waste my time in bloodshed? Don’t you think?”

Before Sagarika could respond, he cut her off.
“By the way, should I give you a piece of free advice?”

Her brows knitted in confusion. “What… what do you mean?”

His voice dropped lower, laced with menace.
“You should start being more careful. If I were in Ivaan’s place, I wouldn’t just focus on saving Jharna. I would also make it my mission to find the person responsible for tearing us apart in the first place.”

The words struck her like ice. Sagarika’s body went rigid, her heart hammering in her chest.

“And in this current scenario…” he added darkly, “…you know exactly what I mean.”

With that, the line went dead.

Sagarika stood frozen on the terrace, the phone slipping slightly in her trembling hand. The night air felt colder than before, wrapping her in a suffocating cloak of dread. For the first time, she realized—her secret was hanging by a thread.

The Next Day – Hospital

Jharna and Ivaan sat quietly across from the doctor. The sterile smell of the hospital pressed heavily around them as the doctor flipped through the reports with a serious face. Finally, he looked up.

“Hmm,” he murmured, “the clot has grown larger than before. If we delay the surgery any further, saving her will become extremely difficult.”

Jharna’s chest tightened. Her fingers trembled in her lap until Ivaan gently reached for her hand, giving it a firm squeeze as though trying to transfer his strength into her. He leaned forward, his voice steady.

“Alright. When do we schedule the surgery?”

The doctor adjusted his glasses. “Before the surgery, I’ll need to run a few more tests. If everything comes back normal, we can begin as early as tomorrow.”

Ivaan nodded slightly, relief and dread mixing in his expression.

Then the doctor added, almost as an afterthought, “You should both be prepared. Since it’s brain surgery, we’ll have to shave your hair completely.” He glanced at Jharna.

“What?!” Jharna’s voice cracked in disbelief.

Even Ivaan looked taken aback.

The doctor’s tone remained matter-of-fact. “Yes. For brain surgery, it’s unavoidable. We need a clear, sterile area to operate. Shaving your hair is necessary.”

Jharna’s heart dropped. It was as though the air had been sucked out of her lungs. Her breaths turned shallow, uneven. She abruptly pulled her hand away from Ivaan’s grasp and, without a word, rushed out of the room.

“Jharna—” Ivaan called after her, immediately rising to follow.

***

Outside the hospital doors, the sharp sunlight hit her face. Her world blurred as panic clouded her vision. Ivaan caught up and gently held her wrist to stop her.

“Listen—” he began softly.

But Jharna shook her head furiously, her voice breaking. “No, Ivaan. I can’t do it. I will not go through with this surgery.”

“Jharna…” Ivaan’s voice was calm, almost pleading. “Relax. I understand what you’re feeling, I really do. But trust me—it’s just hair. Nothing more. And these little things… they don’t matter compared to your life.”

Her eyes welled with tears, frustration spilling out as she snapped, “Just hair? What do you mean by just hair, Ivaan? Do you have any idea what you’re saying?” Her voice cracked, raw with anguish. “I can’t live like that. I can’t!”

Before he could respond, she wrenched free and slipped into the car, slamming the door shut. Ivaan stood frozen for a moment, his heart aching at her pain, watching helplessly as she turned her face away, her shoulders shaking in silent sobs.

***

Maurya Mansion

Jharna lay curled beneath the blanket, hiding herself completely, muffling her sobs into the fabric. Her fragile frame trembled under the weight of fear and despair. Across the room, Ivaan stood silently, watching helplessly as she cried herself into exhaustion. His eyes burned, his chest tightened—but he said nothing.

Just then, Meera entered. She froze for a second, taking in the sight—Jharna’s muffled sobs from under the blanket and Ivaan’s silent heartbreak standing over her. The sight almost broke her, but before she could speak, Ivaan quickly masked his pain.

“Meera,” he said in a low voice, “please, talk to her. She’ll listen to you.”

Without waiting for her response, he turned and left casually, though his steps felt heavier than lead.

***

In the study room, Ivaan pushed the door open and exhaled deeply. The silence pressed down on him like a storm. He began searching aimlessly—through files, drawers, even shelves—as if desperately trying to find something that might calm the chaos within. But there was nothing. Nothing that could soothe his soul.

A hand rested gently on his shoulder. He turned to find Shikha standing there.

“Looking for peace?” she asked softly.

Ivaan’s lips quivered into a broken smile. “That will only come, Maa, when she gets better.”

His strength gave way. He sank to the floor like a little boy, looking up at her with tear-filled eyes. “She’ll be alright, won’t she, Maa? Tell me she’ll be fine…”

Shikha’s own eyes welled up. She lowered herself beside him, and as he leaned his head into her lap, she began to stroke his hair, just as she had when he was a child.

Tears slipped down his cheeks as his voice broke. “I never knew love could hurt this much. First, she entered my life in such a way that I couldn’t even stand being around her for a second… and then, somehow, I fell in love. So deep that without her, these last three years I lived like a corpse. Searching for her in every street, every city, every place… and now, when I’ve finally found her, she’s talking about leaving me again.”

He paused, his body trembling. “But this time, she’s not leaving for another city or another country. This time, if she goes… I won’t be able to find her. She’ll be gone forever, Maa.”

Tears poured relentlessly from both their eyes. His voice cracked further as he continued, “If only… if only I could take all her pain on myself. Every tear of hers, every wound—if they were mine, she wouldn’t have to suffer. If it were in my power, I would never have let things reach this point. I would have fought the entire world just to keep her safe, to keep even a single tear from falling from her eyes. But what can I do? I’m helpless, Maa. Completely helpless. I’ve never felt this powerless before.”

He clutched her hand like a child. “What do I do? Tell me… what do I do? I can’t even imagine my life without her anymore. I won’t survive without her. I just won’t.”

His sobs echoed in the room, raw and unguarded. Shikha held him, brushing his hair, trying to soothe his shattered heart. From the doorway, Meera had been listening quietly. Her own eyes brimmed with tears. She quickly wiped them and turned away with determination, heading straight to Jharna’s room.

***

Inside the room, Meera stormed in and yanked the blanket off Jharna. Startled, Jharna sat upright, her tear-streaked face pale with shock.

“Di, what are you doing?” she gasped.

“What are you doing?” Meera’s voice thundered, sharp and filled with anguish. “Who are you? Because you are not Jharna. The Jharna I know isn’t this weak! Crying at every hurdle, surrendering without a fight? No. That’s not you. That’s me. That used to be me.”

Jharna blinked through her tears, speechless.

Meera’s voice shook with memory. “Do you remember? I was the one who broke down. I was the one who gave in to fear, ready to end my life. And what did you tell me then?”

Jharna looked at her silently, heart pounding.

“You told me,” Meera continued, her voice steady but laced with pain, “that the daughter of DSP Dinesh Kashyap never gives up. Papa never taught us to surrender. And when I wanted to end my life, you reminded me—I had Miransh inside me. That I had no right to take his life away. So tell me, Jharna—who gave you the right to take away Ivaan’s life? To destroy Miransh’s world? Huh?”

Jharna froze, her breath caught in her throat.

Meera’s eyes blazed with tears. “When you weren’t here, I saw everything. Not a single day went by when Miransh didn’t talk to your cut-out, believing you were listening. And Ivaan… Jharna, you can’t even imagine how much he loves you. The day you fell from that helicopter, he jumped after you—without a thought, without a reason—because in his heart, he believed he could save you. But nature wasn’t in his control, and he couldn’t. But he didn’t escape unscathed—his left hand was badly injured. Still, not once… not once did I see him cry for himself. And yet today, he’s crying—for you.”

Jharna’s lips trembled, her body shaking with shock.

“He’s fighting destiny, fighting the world, and fighting even you—for you. And what are you doing?” Meera’s voice cracked, but her words cut sharp. “Hiding here like a coward. Without even trying, you’ve given up. At least he’s trying. And instead of being his strength, you’re breaking him.”

Tears streamed down both their faces now.

Meera grabbed her shoulders. “Jharna, you are so, so fortunate. Not everyone gets a husband who loves like this. You have it. Don’t throw it away. Fight—for him, for yourself, for your family. Victory only comes when you fight.”

She wiped her own tears roughly, her tone hardening. “Enough of this drama. Your surgery is tomorrow—that’s final. You will do exactly as the doctors say. And if you shed one more tear—just one—I swear, I’ll slap you.”

With that, she turned and stormed out, leaving Jharna staring after her in stunned silence, her sister’s words echoing in her heart.

***

Sagarika, aka Tia, paced restlessly across the room. That man’s words kept echoing in her head, refusing to let her breathe in peace. The tension was written all over her face.

Just then, Vihaan walked in. His eyes instantly caught her unease. Moving closer, he said gently, “Don’t worry, I’m with you. Nothing will happen.”

His words jolted her. A sudden fear struck her heart. Why is he saying this? Did he… did he find out something?

Trying to mask her anxiety, she hesitantly asked, “What are you talking about?”

Vihaan, unaware of the storm inside her, replied casually, “About Jharna bhabhi.”

Her eyes widened. “Jharna?!”

He nodded. “Yes. Her surgery is tomorrow, right? That’s why you’re worried, isn’t it?”

A heavy sigh of relief escaped her lips. “Oh… yes. That’s the reason. I’m just… tense about that.”

Vihaan’s gaze softened. “I can’t imagine what Ivaan bhai must be going through right now. To see the person you love in such a condition… it takes a strength I don’t think I have. Honestly, if I ever lost you—if you ever went away from me—I wouldn’t be able to live.”

At his words, Tia’s heart skipped a beat.

Night

Ivaan stood outside the door, his hand resting on the handle as if gathering strength. With a deep breath, he finally pushed it open and stepped inside. His eyes swept across the room, searching desperately. But Jharna was nowhere to be seen.

“Jharna?” he called softly, his voice trembling in the silence.

Panic began to creep in as his gaze darted from corner to corner. He moved quickly, almost running, until his steps halted at the balcony.

And there—his heart stopped. What he saw left him utterly shocked.

***

Sitara’s Note

Sometimes love isn’t about grand gestures—it’s about standing at the edge of despair and still choosing to hold on.

Ivaan’s silence hides storms, Jharna’s tears mask her fears, and Meera’s anger is only love in its fiercest form. In pain, we often forget that the ones beside us are breaking too.

This chapter isn’t just about a surgery—it’s about courage, the kind that comes when you fight not for yourself, but for those you love.

I know this stage too. I once went through a small surgery myself. And what I realized is—while the patient lies unconscious, it’s the family who remains conscious… and they feel the weight of every single moment. Their pain, their helplessness, their prayers—it all lingers. I tried to pour that truth into these pages. Hopefully, I was able to portray it well.

Writing the silent pain of those who wait outside the operation room
—Sitara Chandria

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